That feeling of being on high alert the whole day. Of knowing it was coming and dreading it. That feeling when there it was sucking the breath out of you. Of not being able to sleep. I wanted to cry but couldn't. And yes, going out of the bedroom into the living room as if the attack won't follow you. That fear and exhaustion of reliving it again the next day. And finding yourself needing therapy again, despite not having the energy to. I am so sorry to read this!!! I may not know entirely what you're going through but I relate to this so much. This Saturday I scheduled a session with my therapist again after three months of thinking i was finally starting to recover. It's so exhausting even sleeping is hard when it's all you want to do. But I want to say, we're in this together and we'll breathe better soon. Thank you for the advice of humming.
I felt the same when I read this letter! Although not much has changed, the therapy went fine. It was like a refresher. I'm drinking a caffeine-free tea that somehow helps me sleep better at night. It's called Rooibos tea. And I've tried humming during one of those crazy nights! There's something about it that just feels so relieving to do. More than tension, it's an emotion-releaser. How about you? I hope you've had better days and nights!
I'm very glad to hear you're navigating this in the best way for you. I wish I could cut caffeine, but it's something to strive towards!
I would also suggest looking into humming while meditating, there's plenty of resources on YouTube if you're interested. However, as long as it's helping you release whatever needs to be let go, stick with what works for you!
I have had the time and space to reflect and rejuvenate as I've taken a semi-hiatus so I'm coming back into this space with a fresh perspective. Therapy is still dodgy but I will come to a conclusion soon.
I actually miss drinking coffee. I've been on decaf in the mornings just to get the feel of it until I can completely let go. I will try that combination out! It's good to know you took a pause to focus on your well-being and I hope you're taking all the time you need without all the external pressures. 🤍
That feeling of being on high alert the whole day. Of knowing it was coming and dreading it. That feeling when there it was sucking the breath out of you. Of not being able to sleep. I wanted to cry but couldn't. And yes, going out of the bedroom into the living room as if the attack won't follow you. That fear and exhaustion of reliving it again the next day. And finding yourself needing therapy again, despite not having the energy to. I am so sorry to read this!!! I may not know entirely what you're going through but I relate to this so much. This Saturday I scheduled a session with my therapist again after three months of thinking i was finally starting to recover. It's so exhausting even sleeping is hard when it's all you want to do. But I want to say, we're in this together and we'll breathe better soon. Thank you for the advice of humming.
We’re definitely in this together!!
It saddens me that you can relate to it but on the other hand it makes me feel a little less lonely. Thank you for sharing your feelings with me.
How’s therapy going for you? I’d love to hear more from you!
I felt the same when I read this letter! Although not much has changed, the therapy went fine. It was like a refresher. I'm drinking a caffeine-free tea that somehow helps me sleep better at night. It's called Rooibos tea. And I've tried humming during one of those crazy nights! There's something about it that just feels so relieving to do. More than tension, it's an emotion-releaser. How about you? I hope you've had better days and nights!
I'm very glad to hear you're navigating this in the best way for you. I wish I could cut caffeine, but it's something to strive towards!
I would also suggest looking into humming while meditating, there's plenty of resources on YouTube if you're interested. However, as long as it's helping you release whatever needs to be let go, stick with what works for you!
I have had the time and space to reflect and rejuvenate as I've taken a semi-hiatus so I'm coming back into this space with a fresh perspective. Therapy is still dodgy but I will come to a conclusion soon.
I actually miss drinking coffee. I've been on decaf in the mornings just to get the feel of it until I can completely let go. I will try that combination out! It's good to know you took a pause to focus on your well-being and I hope you're taking all the time you need without all the external pressures. 🤍